Monday, January 11, 2010

Tears of Peace; Tears for Sunshine

First I must thank all of you who have been praying for us. I truly believe the promises we find in God's Word and His promises have been what have carried us for the past week:
Philippians 4:6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
A week ago we received notice that there were new photo-listed children to review, and of course I had to go look at them. Immediately I was drawn to a baby girl and when I showed Nate he was also taken by her sweet face. Not knowing what the process involved at the time, we requested her file for review.
There was mention of alcohol intake throughout the pregnancy, which was concerning, however; she was also thought to have a disease that could be very major. Our hearts were in a fierce struggle as we knew that this little girl needs a loving family, but also being terrified of the research we were learning about this disease.
We finally were able to discuss the medical records with several experts, including a specialist with expertise in her suspected condition. She was able to answer and confirm some of the fears we had with this condition. Prayerfully, we continued to seek God's will, and after finally deciding not to proceed and to wait for a referral based on our medical checklist, we finally began to feel a peace in our hearts.
Psalm 29:11

"The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace."
When we requested this baby's file, we had no idea how heart-wrenching it would be to make a decision. We are mourning the loss of a child now, that was never ours to begin with. We are praying and burdened that her forever family will be matched with her very soon. I know it will take a bit of time for our hearts to heal, but also am comforted in knowing that God has a plan for us and we just have to be patient and wait for His timing.
We ask that you continue to pray for this little girl we will call "Sunshine" I am praying that very soon her photo will indicate "I have a family". We know that the prayers of many avails much.
Thank you for being such great friends and prayer warriors. You have blessed our lives beyond measure...

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry Ellen. Praying for you and for Sunshine!